“When I see a man in anxiety, I say to myself, what can it be that this fellow wants?”

We would ask something else. We ask an anxious person what is wrong, or what they are afraid of, and often the true answer is that nothing has happened yet. That is close to the definition of the thing. Psychologists separate fear from anxiety by what each one is about. Fear is the response to a danger that is present and clear, like the car that pulls out in front of you. Anxiety is the response to something that might happen, has not happened yet, and may never happen at all. Fear ends when the car has passed. Anxiety has nothing to end it, because the thing it is waiting for is still undecided, and so it can go on for an afternoon or for ten years.

You can recognize it by what it makes you do. You rehearse a conversation that has not taken place, sometimes a dozen times. You read the message again after you have sent it. You ask someone whether they are sure it will be fine, feel better for ten minutes, and then want to ask again.

Your body responds to both in much the same way. The heart speeds up, the stomach tightens, sleep gets lighter and attention narrows onto the threat. That is a good arrangement for the few seconds it takes a car to pass. Kept up for months, it becomes the list of symptoms the World Health Organization gives for anxiety disorders, which includes trouble concentrating, irritability, a pounding heart, poor sleep and “a sense of impending danger, panic or doom.”

Think of it like a smoke alarm. An alarm that goes off when you burn the toast is a nuisance. An alarm that stays quiet during a real fire can kill you. So every sensible smoke alarm is built to go off too often, and the psychiatrist Randolph Nesse has argued that evolution set our own alarm the same way. For most of human history a false alarm cost a few minutes of a racing heart, while a missed danger could cost a life, and we are descended from the people whose alarms rang early. An anxious mind is in that sense working as designed. The trouble is that the alarm now sits in a house it was not built for.

It was built for dangers that were close, physical and quickly over. The phone in your pocket now reports every fire in the world, at any hour, and you can do nothing about almost any of them. There is also some evidence that the phone has made us worse at not knowing things. An analysis of fifty-two North American studies found that people’s reported difficulty with uncertainty rose between 1999 and 2014, in step with the spread of mobile phones and the internet. That is a correlation, and the researchers say so, but their explanation is hard to dismiss. A device that can settle any small doubt in seconds, whether it is where she is or what a symptom means, leaves us with less and less practice at leaving a doubt open.

The numbers point the same way. By the WHO’s latest count, 470 million people had an anxiety disorder in 2023, which makes it the most common mental disorder in the world, and only about one in four of them receives any treatment. In the United States, the share of adults who said they felt more anxious than the year before went from 32 percent in 2022 to 37 percent in 2023 and 43 percent in 2024. Those figures leave out everyone who gets through the day perfectly well and still declines the invitation, puts off the phone call, or decides not to apply. I think that is where anxiety costs the most for those of us who would never call it a disorder. We pay for it in the things we stop doing.

Almost all the advice we are given is about turning the alarm down. Breathe slowly, go for a walk, leave the phone in another room. It is good advice, and it treats the noise as the problem. But an alarm is a report about something else, and Epictetus was interested in the something else. He wanted to know what the alarm was guarding, which is why his question to an anxious person was what they wanted. He believed the answer was always the same kind of thing, whether the person in front of him was a singer with stage fright or, in one of his examples, a king waiting to meet a philosopher. He also believed that the answer shows you the one part of anxiety you can change.

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I want you to think about the last time you felt something so strongly that it seemed to reach you before reason did.

Maybe it was anger. Maybe fear, shame, or envy. You could see what was happening clearly enough. You may even have known what the sensible thing to do was. But the feeling had already arrived, your body had already reacted, and for a few moments it seemed to be speaking louder than everything else.

I think we are often too hard on ourselves for those moments. We assume that if we were calmer, wiser, or more disciplined, we would not feel so much in the first place.

The Stoics did not see it that way.

Around the year 150, a Roman writer named Aulus Gellius took a ship from Corfu to Brindisi. On board was a well-known Stoic teacher. During the night a storm hit. Water poured into the ship, and by morning the sky was black and the wind had not let up. The passengers screamed, wept and prayed.

Gellius kept his eyes on the philosopher. The man did not scream and he did not weep. But his face had gone white, and he looked as frightened as everyone else.

When the sea calmed, a rich passenger walked over and mocked him in front of the others.

Some philosopher you are.

I was not afraid at all, and you turned pale.

Gellius had been wondering the same thing, and later he asked the teacher in private. Why had he gone pale? The teacher did not defend himself. He took out a volume of Epictetus and read Gellius the answer.

The rich passenger had made an easy mistake. He assumed that a man in command of himself would feel nothing, so the philosopher had failed the moment his face went white, and he himself had passed by staying calm. But the passenger had not done anything. He had simply not been afraid. If that counts as self-control, then self-control is luck, something that happens to you or does not, and there would be nothing to practice. The Stoics taught the opposite. A steady mind is built, and the pale teacher on the deck shows what it looks like from the inside while the building is going on.

You have stood where he stood, if never on a ship. Something happens, and the feeling arrives before you have finished understanding what happened. Anger, envy, fear, shame. You are not confused about the situation. Often you can see it clearly, and you can see what the sensible thing to do would be. You do something else anyway. Later, when the feeling has drained out of you, you cannot explain why the part of you that knew better never got a say.

What makes this hard to fix is that the feeling was not simply wrong. Anger often points at a real unfairness. Envy tells you the truth about what you want. Shame sometimes catches a failure that nobody else would have named. The feeling did its job. The trouble came from what arrived with it, an urge to speak, to grab, to hide, to leave. That urge borrowed the feeling’s authority, and you acted on it before it had been checked.

So there are two questions in that moment, and they have different answers. Is the feeling telling me something true? And should I do what it is telling me to do? Being angry does not settle what you ought to do about it. That gap between the two questions is what the Stoics spent so much care on.

The book the teacher read from was the fifth volume of Epictetus’s Discourses, which is now lost. We know what it said only because Gellius copied the passage down. When something frightening happens, it said, the impression of it strikes the mind before the mind has done anything. Nobody chooses to be struck. The wise person is struck like anyone else, and may go pale and flinch for a moment. The difference comes next. The wise person does not agree with the impression. He does not add his own judgment that this is terrible and something must be done. The fool agrees, and from then on the fear is his.

Seneca gives the same sequence in his book On Anger, and I have been through his account before, so the short version will do. First comes a movement of the body that happens on its own, the face flushing or going white, the breath catching, and no amount of wisdom removes it. Second comes a judgment, something like I have been wronged and ought to pay this back, or this is unbearable and I have to get out. That judgment is still open to reason. Third is what happens if you agree with it. The feeling now has the wheel. Anger is Seneca’s example, but he treats it as the pattern for the passions in general, and the teacher on the deck is that pattern in action. He got as far as the second stage and stopped there, and that is the whole difference between him and the passengers who screamed.

Think of it like a messenger who runs into your house and shouts that a man down the road has been insulting you in front of everyone, and that you had better go and deal with him right now.

He has told you two things. That the man insulted you is news. That you should go down there is an order. The news has earned a hearing, because something may well have happened. The order has not, because the messenger is not in charge of you. He heard one side of it, he is red in the face, and he will not be the one who has to live with what you do next.

Every strong emotion is that messenger. Fear reports that something you value is exposed. Envy reports that there is something you want and had not admitted. Shame reports that you fell short of a standard you hold, in front of people whose judgment you have given weight to. Anger reports that a line was crossed. Each report may be true, and each arrives with an order that was written in the first second, before anyone knew anything.

The trouble is that the gap between the report and the order is short. Chrysippus, the third head of the Stoic school, described it with a picture that the physician Galen preserved. A person walking can stop whenever they choose. A person running cannot. Their legs carry them past the place where they meant to stop, because the movement has become bigger than their will. A passion, he said, is the mind running. The only place you can stop is before you start to run, which means the tool has to work in the few seconds before agreement, and it has to be small enough to remember when your face is already hot.

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The reason is simple. Wants arrive long before we are able to choose anything. As children we learn what to want the same way we learn to talk, by copying the people around us. We see what our parents praise. We see what gets applause at school, who is respected on our street, and what makes our friends jealous. By the time we sit down at eighteen to decide what we want from life, a lot of the deciding has already been done.

You can test this on yourself. Take the thing you are working hardest for right now, and ask whether you would still want it if nobody could ever know you had it. No photos, no telling anyone, no change in how people look at you. Some wants pass that test easily. Others go strangely quiet, and then you have to ask what you were really wishing for.

This is how a person ends up with one of the saddest experiences adult life has to offer. You work for years toward something, you get it, and then you stand inside it with a thought you can’t say out loud.

“This is what I always wanted. So why doesn’t it feel like mine?”

The usual advice is to forget what others expect and find out what you really want, deep down. The trouble is that there is no “deep down” of the kind this advice imagines. If you took away everything you learned from other people, your language, your taste, your sense of right and wrong, your idea of a good life, nothing would be left to do the wanting. There is no untouched version of you underneath, waiting to be found.

So we seem to be stuck. Our wants came from outside, and there is no pure inside to go back to. If that is true, how can any want be your own? And how can you be responsible for wants you never chose?

The Stoics worked on questions very close to this problem more than two thousand years ago, and their answer is more practical than anything I have found in modern advice.

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How do you know what day you were born?

You were there, but you don’t remember it. You know the date because your parents told you, and because it is printed on a document that someone else filled in. You have repeated it your whole life, on every form, without once asking for proof.

Now try a few more. How do you know the earth is billions of years old? How do you know the medicine in your bathroom does what the box says? How do you know that a country you have never visited exists? If you went through everything you believe and kept only what you have personally seen and tested, very little would be left. Almost everything you know, you know because someone told you and you decided to believe them.

On a normal day this works fine. The trouble starts when the people you rely on disagree with each other.

Say you see two doctors about the same problem. One tells you to have the operation. The other tells you to wait. Both studied for years, both have treated hundreds of patients, and both are sure. You have to choose between them, and you did not go to medical school.

The usual advice is to think for yourself. So you go home and start reading, and you read for the whole weekend. By Sunday night you have learned some new words, and you are no closer to knowing which doctor is right. A few hours of reading cannot replace twenty years of training, and deep down you know that.

So you choose another way, usually without realizing it. You go with the doctor who sounded more confident. Or the one who explained things more clearly, or who seemed kinder, or who gave you the answer you were hoping for. It feels like you weighed the evidence. What you did was pick the person you liked more.

I have to admit that my post from last August did not help with this. I wrote that thinking for yourself does not mean ignoring experts, and that the real skill is telling true expertise from false authority. Then I moved on. I never said how to do that, and that is the hard part.

So how do you decide who to trust when you are not able to check their work?

The question is bigger than doctors and scientists. There is the friend you call before every big decision. There is the parent whose ideas about money you picked up as a child, long before you could question them. There are the two or three people whose opinions you hear in your head when you are trying to make up your mind. Do they deserve that place? Would you be happy to end up thinking the way they think? Because if you listen to someone for long enough, that is what happens.

This is the whole reason I write this newsletter. The goal I have for every reader is sovereignty. Over your attention, over your thinking, and over how you respond to whatever the world puts in front of you. A mind that can be talked into anything is not sovereign. But a mind that trusts nobody is not sovereign either, because it ends up believing whatever it happened to stumble on and calling that independence. A sovereign mind still takes other people’s word for most things. What makes it sovereign is that it chooses whose word to take. That choice is one we rarely make for ourselves. It gets made for us, by whoever is loudest, or closest, or most sure of themselves.

There is a way to make it yourself, and you don’t have to become an expert in anything to use it. It starts with a fact that sounds like bad news at first. Nobody thinks for themselves in the way we like to imagine. Not you, not me, and not the experts either.

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Some years ago I started writing down my reflections and, more importantly, returning to them later. The returning is where everything interesting happened. Problems that had once consumed me sat on the page in full urgency, and I had trouble remembering what the urgency was about. Opinions I no longer held were still there, argued with a confidence I recognized immediately because it was the same confidence I could feel in my current opinions.

Until then, I could tell a story about how I had changed. Everyone can. The pages gave me something to check that story against, and the story did not always survive the check.

You know you were different five years ago. That much is easy. Now try to remember what you expected from the years ahead, back before you knew how they would turn out. Which worry seemed certain to stay with you? What did you assume would matter by now? The honest answer is that you cannot fully get back there. What happened afterward keeps leaking into the memory, tidying it, making your past self a little wiser and a little more consistent with the person doing the remembering.

An old entry has no access to what happened afterward. It preserves what you wrote while the outcome was still unknown, and it may be unfair, overdramatic, or completely mistaken. Even that becomes useful. You can examine the reasoning you used at the time, including the parts you would now prefer to explain a little differently.

Underneath all the ordinary advice about journaling, this is the function I find most interesting. You are building a record that future versions of you can return to, with enough distance to see what was difficult to notice while you were living through it.

The Stoics took writing seriously for practical reasons. Cleanthes was said to have recorded Zeno’s lectures on oyster shells and ox shoulder blades because he could not afford ordinary writing materials. Centuries later, Epictetus urged his students to write down important thoughts and return to them regularly. An insight needed to remain available after the moment in which it first made sense.

Kept long enough, those pages can also reveal something less comfortable. You may find a promise from years ago that sounds almost exactly like one you made last week. Both were sincere. Reading them together raises a question that another fresh burst of determination cannot answer.

Marcus Aurelius kept returning to the same lessons in his own writing. Repetition can be part of learning to live by a principle, and it can also conceal how little we have changed. How do we tell which one we are doing?

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Somewhere past the middle of a bad day, the day can stop being a day and start feeling like evidence about your life.

The tiredness that belonged to this afternoon begins to say something about your career. One rejection starts shaping what you expect from the future. An evening of loneliness reaches much further than the evening itself. Nothing necessarily changed in the facts. We simply began drawing much larger conclusions from them.

You can sometimes hear that shift in the language we use.

Today was difficult becomes everything has been difficult lately.

I feel lost becomes I have no idea what I am doing with my life.

This did not work becomes nothing I try ever works.

At first we stay close to what we actually know. Then we make claims about months, years, sometimes an entire future. Words like always, never, everything, and nothing allow a judgment formed in one moment to speak for far more of our life than it can really account for.

This is one reason I like the image of low tide.

If you had never seen the sea before and arrived at the shore after the water had pulled back, much of what you observed would be true. The boats really would be sitting lower. The mud really would be exposed. The water really would be far from where it had been.

Your mistake would begin when you tried to understand the whole ocean from that single moment.

Nobody familiar with the coast needs to deny what is in front of them. They simply know that what they are seeing now is one state of something larger.

We have much less difficulty remembering that about the sea than about ourselves.

A bad state changes what comes easily to mind. When you are disappointed, old disappointments are easier to remember. When you feel behind, every delay and unfinished ambition suddenly seems important. When you are lonely, the mind rarely gives equal attention to all the periods in which you felt loved, connected, and understood.

The conclusion can therefore feel remarkably well supported. You are not merely miserable. You can point to reasons.

That is where I think the Stoics become useful.

Epictetus made a distinction between an impression and our decision to accept it as true.

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An impression appears quickly and often feels convincing before we have had much chance to examine it. His advice was to slow that process down and ask what has actually happened before agreeing with everything the first impression seems to suggest.

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The practice can sound grim. Why deliberately think about losing something while you still have it?

One common interpretation is that imagining loss prepares you for it. Rehearse the death, the separation, the illness, or the failure often enough and perhaps, when the real thing arrives, you will meet it with less fear and less pain.

I do not think that is a realistic promise, and I am not sure it is a desirable one either. You can remind yourself every morning that someone you love will die and still be devastated when they do. You can understand impermanence perfectly well in theory and discover, in a hospital room or after one unexpected phone call, that understanding has done very little to soften the immediate fact of absence.

Grief does not prove that the practice failed. It may mean that grief was never the thing the practice was supposed to remove.

Epictetus puts the idea in language that can sound almost brutal when read without context:

He applies this to property, to a wife, even to a child. While something has been given to you, he says, care for it, but do not regard it as permanently yours. He compares our situation to that of travelers staying in a hotel. You may use the room while you are there, but you were never promised the room indefinitely.

The language is severe but I think the idea underneath it is worth sitting with.

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Most of us know perfectly well that the people we love are mortal. We know relationships can end, health can change, homes can be lost, careers can disappear, and entire periods of life can close without asking whether we are ready. Knowing this intellectually does not stop us from living as though certain things have quietly become permanent.

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Much of this teaches you how to look confident, but that is not the same as becoming confident.

The problem is simple: you are present for the performance. Other people may see the posture, the voice, the certainty. You also know what happened before you entered the room. You know what you were afraid of, what you were trying to hide, and whether the confidence was real or performed.

Pretending can therefore work on other people while doing little to change what you believe about yourself.

If you repeatedly act confident because you believe the real version of you is not good enough to show, your mind notices that too. The performance may impress the room, but internally it can reinforce the belief that something needed to be hidden.

That is why appearance alone does not build much self-trust. You know when you are acting.

Confidence makes more sense when you stop treating it as a feeling and start treating it as a prediction.

Before something difficult, your mind is asking: How likely am I to handle this well?

The answer comes largely from experience.

A person who has given two hundred presentations has evidence that they can survive another one. A person giving their first has much less evidence. Put the experienced speaker into a completely different situation where they have no record, and much of the confidence may disappear.

Confidence is often specific because experience is specific.

You trust yourself where you have reasons to trust yourself.

Self-trust works the same way. Every time you tell yourself you will do something and follow through, you give yourself another reason to believe your own word. Every time you repeatedly make promises to yourself and ignore them, you teach yourself the opposite.

Tell yourself you will train at six and repeatedly stay in bed. Tell yourself you will stop scrolling at midnight and repeatedly continue. Tell yourself you will make the difficult call tomorrow and move it again.

Eventually, an important moment arrives and you discover that your own promise does not calm you.

That is not mysterious.

You have trained yourself not to believe it.

This is also why confidence can lag behind external success. Someone may have the title, salary, praise, or reputation of a highly capable person and still feel uncertain inside. Sometimes that uncertainty is irrational. But sometimes the external reputation has simply developed faster than the person’s own evidence.

Other people see the result.

You remember every shortcut, lucky break, hesitation, and gap in your ability.

The answer is not always to tell yourself the doubt is false. Sometimes the doubt is showing you exactly where your evidence is thin.

That is useful, because evidence can be built.

Confidence does not have to be summoned. It can be earned through repeated experience.

But that raises a more important question: what kind of evidence should count?

The Stoics give us a useful answer.

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Seneca wrote to Lucilius that it is not because things are difficult that we do not dare, but because we do not dare that things are difficult. The line is often used as motivation, but there is a practical idea inside it: action creates evidence.

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I have written a great deal in this newsletter about critical thinking, thinking for yourself, and protecting your attention from the systems built to capture it. All of that still matters. But none of it matters much if you never give yourself the time to actually think.

This is the gap I keep noticing, both in readers’ letters and in my own life. A person can understand confirmation bias, distrust algorithms, question sources, and value independent thought, yet still pass entire weeks without sitting down to work through a difficult question for themselves. The principles are there. The tools are there. But the activity they are meant for never gets enough time.

Something else fills the space.

You listen to a podcast where two people reason through a problem, and their reasoning begins to feel like your own. You read an essay, follow the argument, agree with the conclusion, and leave with the feeling that you reached it yourself. You watch someone dismantle an idea you already disliked and experience the satisfaction of seeing your position confirmed.

By evening, you may have spent hours around ideas. You have compared them, agreed with some, rejected others, repeated a few.

But consuming thought is not the same as thinking.

Watching someone lift weights is not training.

Take an opinion you hold confidently, about politics, money, raising children, success, or what makes a good life, and try to rebuild the reasoning behind it from the beginning. The conclusion will usually come easily. The difficult part is explaining why you believe it.

What are the premises?

What evidence supports them?

What is the strongest objection?

Can you answer it in your own words?

If you can reconstruct the reasoning, then the opinion has been examined. If what you find instead is the memory of a persuasive person, a phrase that sounded undeniable, or simply the position everyone around you holds, then you may be storing the conclusion without having done the reasoning yourself.

Think of the difference between a workshop and a warehouse.

A warehouse stores finished goods made elsewhere. Everything is labeled, arranged, and ready to be handed out when needed.

A workshop contains tools and raw material. Things are made there. The process is slower, messier, and full of mistakes.

Both can look impressive from the doorway. Both can appear full.

But the warehouse can only distribute what someone else delivered. If the supply becomes unreliable, it has no way to produce anything for itself.

Modern life gives the warehouse an endless supply.

Opinions, frameworks, explanations, political positions, self-help rules, interpretations of events. They arrive already finished and ready to repeat. The volume is so high that managing all of it can feel like intellectual activity in itself.

You can spend every waking hour around ideas without producing many of your own.

That is the sovereignty problem beneath many of the others I have written about. Controlling what enters your mind matters, but carefully choosing your inputs is not enough. You could consume the best books, essays, podcasts, and lectures available and still remain dependent on other people to do the reasoning for you.

Choosing better thinkers to repeat is an improvement.

It is not yet thinking for yourself.

The Stoics paid close attention to the moment where that difference begins.

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Some people function in your life like poison.

Rivals can be beaten, puzzles can be solved, and misunderstandings can dissolve through one honest conversation. Poison responds to none of these.

Poison is also expensive. Add up the cost of the difficult person in your life, and the numbers quickly become uncomfortable. The minutes spent in their presence are the smallest expense. The larger costs arrive afterward. The conversation replayed, the response rehearsed, the story retold until your pulse rises again a full day later.

They occupy a corner of your week and an entire wing of your mind. Whatever they take from you in person, you surrender several times over in private, and no one has ever been reimbursed for those hours.

Nearly every mistake we make with toxic people begins when we use the word but refuse to act as though it is true.

We call them toxic, then treat them as though they are merely misunderstood. We approach them as a moral problem that can be solved through the right argument, the right confrontation, or an explanation of our feelings delivered so clearly that they finally understand and change. Years can disappear into this project.

It has roughly the success rate of explaining ethics to arsenic.

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A chemist handles poisons daily and hates none of them. He does not argue with the mercury or take the acid personally. He does not lie awake composing the speech that will finally make the fumes see reason. He knows what the substance is, and all of his conduct follows from the knowing.

Limit exposure.

Handle with protection.

Never carry it home.

His calm comes from method rather than moral superiority, and the same method applies to people.

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I did not expect this. Nothing about learning announces itself as a way back to life. But somewhere in that period I let myself get curious about something new, and I noticed what curiosity does that nothing else was doing.

It pointed me forward.

Every new layer of understanding paid me something, a small clean hit of aliveness, and for a while the world had flavor again in at least one place. One place was enough to start.

Which is strange, because as a kid, school never interested me. I did fine. I could have done far better if I had known then what I know now. And what I know now traces back to a sentence my grandpa used to say to my dad.

For years that sounded like the kind of thing grandfathers say. Cheap advice, easy to give, impossible to use. You cannot decide to find something interesting any more than you can decide to find a joke funny. Interest happens to you or it does not.

That belief is the whole problem, and a surprising amount of how we learn, work, and choose our lives is built on top of it.

We treat interest as a discovery. Somewhere out there are your subjects, the ones you were made for, and life is a search for them. When you meet one, sparks. When you meet anything else, boredom, and boredom is read as a verdict: not for me.

The verdict feels like information about the subject, and it is measuring something else entirely.

Think of it like taste. Almost no one likes coffee at the first sip. It is bitter, harsh, and vaguely punishing, and every child who steals a taste of it makes the same face. The same is true of beer, of olives, of strong cheese, of most of what adults eventually love best. The first encounter is a wall. The pleasure is on the other side of repeated exposure, and once it arrives, the pleasure is as real as any other. The coffee tastes good now. The palate was trained, and the training produced real enjoyment where there was none.

We accept this about the tongue without argument. Acquired taste is an ordinary phrase, and when someone says “I am simply not a coffee person”, nobody hears it as destiny. And yet we hear exactly that in “I am not a math person”, “not a history person”, “not a poetry person”, in every subject that met us with bitterness on the first sip. We hold, in the same head, the knowledge that taste is trained and the conviction that curiosity is fixed.

Interest is an acquired taste. All of them are.

And the training has a mechanism, one that modern psychology has mapped in some detail. The brain treats new information the way it treats food, releasing dopamine when a gap in understanding closes. That reward is what my younger self was getting from the subjects I already loved and never getting from school. But the reward has a condition attached. New information only pays when it connects to something already there. A fact with nothing to attach to is noise. A fact that clicks into an existing structure is a pleasure. Which means the people who seem naturally interested in a subject differ from you in mileage rather than wiring. They paid the entry cost at some point, often by accident, often as children, and now every new fact lands on a surface prepared to receive it.

The sequence we believe in runs interest first, then learning. The sequence that exists runs the other way. A little learning, then interest, then more learning, then more interest, compounding. Boredom is what a subject looks like from before the entry cost. It is a report on your distance, and we keep reading it as a report on the thing.

Once you see this, my grandpa’s sentence stops being folk comfort and becomes a procedure. Make it interesting is an instruction with steps. The Stoics knew the steps, practiced them on subjects as unpromising as tides and earthquakes, and one of them owed his entire philosophy to a bitter first sip he did not walk away from.

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Stoicism itself began as an accident of exposure. Zeno was a merchant from Cyprus, thirty years old, when his ship went down with its cargo. Stranded in Athens with nothing to do, he wandered into a bookshop and heard the bookseller reading aloud from Xenophon’s recollections of Socrates. Something in it caught his attention. He asked the bookseller where men like that could be found, and the bookseller pointed at Crates the philosopher, who happened to be walking past. Zeno followed him. The rest is the school you are reading about right now.

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Every man dies once. The anxious man dies every night, and wakes each morning to be sentenced again.

The disaster you fear, if it comes at all, will hurt you for its duration. The fear of it hurts you now, and tomorrow, and every day between here and the thing itself. If the disaster arrives, you will have paid twice. If it never arrives, you will have paid for nothing.

Either way, the interest is collected in advance, and the currency is your life.

Think of anxiety as an executioner who works for free. No one hired him. No court sentenced you. He simply appeared one day with his hood and his blade, and you let him in because he claimed to be useful. He said he was protecting you. He said that by killing you a little each evening, he was preparing you for the real execution, whenever it comes. And you believed him, because his voice sounds exactly like your own.

One death was the contract. He rehearses hundreds. The diagnosis, the layoff, the betrayal, the accident, the humiliation, each staged in full costume, each felt in the body as if it were occurring. Your heart does not know the difference between a rehearsal and a performance. It races either way. Your stomach knots either way. The executioner has discovered that he does not need real events at all. Your imagination supplies the gallows, and he supplies the schedule.

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Seneca named this precisely in his letters to Lucilius.

The line gets quoted today as consolation. Seneca filed it as an accusation. He had watched men made wretched by futures that never came, and he noticed something the wretched never notice about themselves. The suffering felt involuntary to them, like something happening to them, when it was something they were doing, every hour, with great effort and total commitment.

The whole argument turns on that distinction. Chrysippus taught that fear is a judgment you are making. A future evil is approaching, you decide, and therefore some part of it must be suffered now. It may feel like weather passing through you but it is still a judgment.

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Confidence is one of the foundations underneath almost everything that makes a good life possible. The courage to act. The steadiness to be disliked. The willingness to try before you feel ready. The strength to fail without turning failure into an identity. Without confidence, so many virtues stay theoretical. With it, they become something you can actually live.

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Somewhere along the way you probably learned that having a feeling and showing a feeling are the same dangerous thing, and that the safe move is to do neither.

So we get good at hiding it. Something lands hard, anger, hurt, a flash of fear, and we arrange the face, level the voice, and say we are fine. It looks like composure. Often it gets praised as maturity. And for a few minutes it even works, because the people around us believe it.

The trouble is that the feeling does not believe it. Pushing a feeling down is like pushing a ball underwater. You can hold it there for a while if you keep your weight on it, but the moment your attention slips, it shoots back up and breaks the surface, often harder than if you had just let it float. What you pressed down is still there, running underneath, and it collects on you. It sits in your chest through dinner. It shortens your patience with someone who did nothing wrong. It surfaces at two in the morning as a tightness you cannot explain. Maybe you recognize one of those. I know all three. Years of this is how people end up numb, or quietly bitter, or unable to say what they feel even when they want to. You did not deal with the feeling by hiding it. You delayed the bill and added interest.

So the usual reaction is to swing the other way. If holding it in does that kind of damage, then let it out, the thinking goes. Feel it fully, express it, get it off your chest. And that does seem to help, until you notice the feeling keeps coming back, often louder than before. Which leaves you nowhere. One side says clamp down and pay for it later. The other says let it all out, and somehow that does not settle it either.

There is a third way, and it is the opposite of the cold, unfeeling picture people usually have of the Stoics. They were not after a life with the feeling drained out of it. They noticed that a feeling is not the raw thing it pretends to be. Underneath every wave of anger or hurt there is a specific claim your mind is making, a verdict it has already reached and is now flooding your body to enforce. You do not have to hold the wave down and you do not have to ride it out. You can turn around and look at the verdict it is built on, and when you do, something happens to the feeling that neither bottling nor venting can produce. Once you have seen it work even once, the choice you were told was your only choice stops looking like a choice at all.

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To understand the alternative, we have to begin with Chrysippus.

Chrysippus ran the Stoic school in the third century BC and, by ancient count, wrote more than seven hundred works. What survives of his psychology carries the most radical claim in the whole tradition.

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There is a story you can tell about your life that is completely true and can still ruin you.

It goes something like this. You were not given what you needed. Someone who was supposed to protect you looked away at the exact moment you needed them to look. A door that should have opened was held shut by a person who had no right to hold it. You built something and watched someone else carry it off with their name on it.

What you are saying might be true.

You could produce the evidence, name the dates, call the witnesses. Tell it aloud to fair-minded people and they would wince and agree.

Yes. That was wrong. That should not have happened to you.

And that agreement is one of the most dangerous things you can hold, because a false grievance eventually runs into better information. It gets corrected. It loses its grip.

A true grievance has no such weakness. Nothing arrives to disprove it, so it can stay alive for years, working on you long after the event itself has ended. Being right is what makes it so hard to put down.

Victim mentality has nothing to do with the harm itself, or with admitting that something unfair happened. Both of those can be completely true and leave you entirely free. Victim mentality begins when the wrong stops being something that happened to you and becomes the center from which you explain your life.

At first the sentence is clean and honest.

This was done to me, and it was not my fault.

Then another sentence attaches itself to the end.

And therefore there is nothing left for me to do.

You were describing a past that cannot be rewritten, and one breath later, you were sentencing a future that has not happened yet.

That is the trap.

What happened may have been unfair and the damage may have been real, and none of that is in question. The identity built on top of it is a separate thing. Harm is something you endured. Victimhood is what happens when that harm becomes the place you keep returning to for an explanation of who you are, what you can do, and what your life is allowed to become.

And because the story is true, it feels almost noble to keep repeating it. There is a kind of dignity in refusing to let the world forget what happened. Letting go can feel like betrayal, like excusing the person responsible, like handing them a second victory. So you keep the case open. You go over the evidence again and again, and you tell yourself this is strength, memory, self-respect.

But a story that keeps you fixed in the place where you were hurt has stopped protecting your dignity and started feeding the part of you that believes your life must stay organized around what someone else did.

That is the part Stoicism is most interested in. Not whether you have a case, not whether the other person deserves blame.

You may. They may.

But are you going to let what happened become the organizing principle of your life?

There is a way to set this down without forgiving it, excusing it, or pretending it never happened. You can call it exactly what it was and still refuse to keep living from it. You can stop making your future answer for someone else’s crime. It asks nothing about how you feel toward the person who hurt you. It asks only what you are willing to do with the life that is still yours. That is the question everything turns on.

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Below the line, I lay out the method itself. You will learn how to separate what happened from what is still yours to do, how to stop carrying a grievance without pretending it was harmless, how to move forward without forgiving anyone before you are ready, and the test that shows whether your next move is truly yours.

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If I kept showing up, I thought the work would eventually become something. Keep writing and the book would appear. Keep training and the body would change. Keep building and the thing would grow. The answer, I thought, was usually more patience, more discipline, more days stacked on top of days.

And sometimes it was.

But consistency has a flaw. It can make motion feel like movement. It can keep you busy enough that you stop checking whether anything is actually changing. You are taking the step, keeping the chain alive, doing roughly what you said you would do, and months can pass before you realize the work has become a loop.

That is the failure that scares me most now.

When I traced back the things I had lost or failed to build, the pattern was usually one of two things.

Sometimes I stopped doing the work. The motivation that was loud in week one went quiet. The thing that was supposed to happen every day started happening some days, then rarely, then never.

Other times, I kept doing the work, but I stopped asking whether it was working.

That second failure is harder to notice because it looks so much like discipline. You are busy. You are consistent. You are putting in the reps. But effort only tells you that something is being spent. It does not tell you whether anything is being built.

So the question is not just: how do you make yourself take the step every day?

It is also: how do you know the step is still worth taking?

You might think the fix for all this is knowing more, but it isn’t.

You almost certainly already know what you should be doing. The writer knows they should write. The person who wants to be strong knows they should train. Whoever is building something can usually name the handful of moves that would grow it. Knowledge is rarely the thing that’s missing.

Musonius Rufus, the Stoic who taught Epictetus, was blunt about this two thousand years ago. He said virtue is not something you understand but something you practice, closer to a craft than to a set of ideas. He liked to ask his students who they would rather have treat them when sick, the physician who could lecture brilliantly on medicine but had never touched a patient, or the one who spoke poorly and had healed people for years. The answer is obvious, and it stays obvious for music, for sailing, for anything worth being able to do. The one who can talk is not the one who can do. Theory tells you the right move. Only practice makes you able to make it.

So the thing standing between you and what you’re building was never a missing idea. It comes down to a practice simple enough to repeat, and honest enough to keep checking. The repetitions have to happen, but they also have to stay pointed at something real.

The practice has two parts. One makes the daily step almost impossible to skip, even on the days you’re tired and busy and want nothing to do with it. The other is a check that takes about a minute a week and sorts your situation into one of three states: moving forward, standing still, or moving backward.

The rest of this post lays out the full practice. The four tests that make a daily step almost impossible to skip. The one rule that holds the whole thing together on the days your motivation collapses. The weekly check that separates real movement from busywork dressed up as progress. And the three states it can reveal, each with the specific response that fixes it.

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Emotional armor sold as wisdom.

There is something to the accusation. A person who wants nothing has nothing left to lose, and someone who has talked themselves out of caring really is harder to wound. The protection is real, and that is exactly what makes it tempting.

What the temptation hides is the cost, which is most of what made the life worth protecting in the first place. Plenty of people have taken something they call Stoicism and used it for exactly that, as a permission slip to stop reaching for anything that could be taken away.

But that is not what the Stoics taught. The misreading comes down to a single word.

The word is "indifferent".

The Stoics divided everything that exists into three kinds. The first is the one true good, which they called virtue. By virtue they meant the quality of a person's character and choices, how well someone meets whatever life puts in front of them.

The second is the one true bad, which they called vice, the same character and choices gone wrong, the failure to meet life well.

And then there is the entire rest of the world. Health and sickness, wealth and poverty, reputation and comfort, the work people pour themselves into, the outcomes they chase, the people they love. The Stoics put all of it under a third heading, the indifferents, or adiaphora in Greek.

That word is where nearly everyone goes wrong.

We hear “indifferent” and take it to mean unimportant, the kind of thing a wise person is supposed to shrug off. The Stoic term meant something far narrower and stranger.

It pointed to one fact and nothing more. No single one of these things, on its own, decides whether your life is a good one.

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Once that much is clear, the Stoics drew a second distinction. Among the indifferents, they said, some are to be preferred and some avoided.

They had a name for the good ones, the proēgmena, the preferred things, and held that these carry real worth. Health, strength, enough money to be free of fear, the people you love alive and well. All of these fit our nature and are worth having, and any sane person reaches for them. Their opposites are the dispreferred ones, to be kept away wherever you can.

The Stoic does not stop caring about the preferred things. They pursue health, money, meaningful work, and the people they love with real seriousness, the way any sensible person does. These things are worth choosing, worth aiming at, worth protecting where you can. The philosophy asks for one change only, a change in what that wanting is allowed to rest on.

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For the past six months I’ve been reworking the Confidence series I published here almost two years ago. Confidence has fascinated me for as long as I can remember. Why some people seem to carry it without effort, why others reach for it and never quite find it, how it shapes the smallest decisions of an ordinary day, and how it’s actually built rather than performed.

The series I wrote two years ago was my first attempt at answering those questions. Since then, after a lot more research and a lot more practice, my understanding has moved a long way past where it was. What started as a rework became a complete ebook.

It's called STOIC CONFIDENCE, around 150 pages on how confidence is actually built. The kind of steadiness that survives pressure, failure, and disapproval, because it was earned through action and accumulated experience, and gets stronger every time you use it. It pairs the Stoic tradition (Epictetus, Seneca, Marcus Aurelius, Musonius) with forty years of research from cognitive science and performance psychology, and shows where the two independently reached the same conclusions. Every chapter ends with concrete practices, and every research claim has been checked against its original source.

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Two people are told the same true thing about themselves. The same sentence, more or less, delivered without malice by someone in a position to know. It lands on a real flaw, the kind you would want named if you could get past how it feels to hear it.

One of them goes quiet, takes it in, and is different within a month. The other spends the next year explaining why the person who said it was wrong, or biased, or projecting.

They are not separated by intelligence. They could be equally sharp, equally experienced, equally able to understand the words. What separates them sits upstream of all that. It is what each has staked their sense of self on, and whether the true thing threatens that stake or simply informs it.

For one of them, the information is just information. For the other, it is an attack, and it gets treated the way attacks get treated.

This is what ego does, and it is not what we usually think ego does.

The familiar complaint is behavioral. The egotist is arrogant, talks over people, can’t take feedback, rests on past success until it rots. All true, and all beside the point, because it locates the damage in how the person acts. The deeper damage happens earlier, in perception. Before you can decide what to do about a fact, you have to see the fact, and ego gets in there first.

It works as a filter. Every piece of incoming information passes through one question before you are aware of evaluating anything. What does this say about me. By the time the fact reaches you it has already been sorted, flattering things absorbed, threatening things flagged for rejection, and the part you actually needed, the signal about reality the fact was carrying, is gone. You evaluated what it implied about you, and you responded to that.

So when you fail, you fail not because you behaved badly. You fail because you were working from bad data, making a sound decision on a picture of reality that had been edited, before you ever saw it, to protect something.

You can watch the filter run if you know what to look for.

There is an argument you could not concede. It had nothing to do with being sure you were right. Somewhere in the middle, winning stopped being about the question and became about you, and backing down would have felt less like changing your mind than like a small death. So you kept going, defending a position you might not even have held anymore, because the position and your standing had fused and you could no longer pull them apart from the inside.

Or someone said something plain to you, something with no edge in it, and you felt the floor tilt. They were describing a fact and you received a verdict. The filter had turned information into a statement about your worth, you answered the statement instead of the information, and the person across from you had no idea what just happened.

Then there is the skill you stopped improving at. You got good. Good enough that being good became part of who you were, and the better you got, the more it cost to notice your own mistakes, because each one was now a threat to the identity you had built on being competent. So at some point, without deciding to, you stopped seeing them. The plateau you blamed on talent or time was often this. A person who could no longer afford to see the flaws that getting better requires you to see.

And there is the thing you will not start. The language, the instrument, the discipline you have wanted for years and keep not beginning, because beginning means being visibly bad at it in front of other people, and the part of you organized around being capable cannot stand that exposure. Ego did not cost you a little progress there. It cost you the whole skill, traded away to avoid a few weeks of looking like a beginner.

The same machine runs in all of them. A fact arrives that could help, the filter asks what it means about you, the answer feels like a threat, and the help inside the fact is lost in handling the threat.

The question is why a mind would build a thing whose whole function is to keep it from seeing what it most needs to see.

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The filter exists because of where the self has chosen to stand.

Everything in the first half of this post traces back to one placement you made early and have rarely looked at since, of where you put your sense of who you are. The filter is downstream of that. It runs because of where you put yourself, and it will keep running as long as you stay there. Which means the real question was never how to handle criticism better. It is where you have been standing all along, and whether the ground under you was ever yours to stand on.

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It instantly burned with rage, whipped around, and bit down hard on the saw’s teeth.

The teeth pierced its mouth and it began to bleed.

Under the searing pain, certain it had been gravely provoked, the snake completely erupted. It used all its strength to wrap itself tightly around the saw, trying to strangle this enemy to death.

The harder it squeezed, the deeper the teeth sank in. In the end, its body was severed clean through by the blade.

The saw never moved.

It was lying on the ground. It had no opinions about the snake. It hadn’t reached for it, hadn’t tracked it, hadn’t even known it was there. The cut happened because two surfaces touched.

The saw didn’t kill the snake. The snake’s response did.

The standard reading of the story is that the snake was stupid. Should have crawled away. Should have let it go. That reading is wrong, and it misses the part worth paying attention to.

The snake wasn’t stupid. It was responding to something almost no creature is built to handle. A wound with no real enemy.

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Pain alone doesn’t produce that kind of escalating fury. Even sharp pain. What the snake encountered was no ordinary injury. A wound nobody meant. No predator at the other end of it. No warning in the air before the strike. Nothing to be angry at in the ordinary sense.

Just two surfaces touching.

So the mind does what minds do when the truth is too thin to lean on.

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To know yourself, you have to examine yourself. But the instrument of examination is the same mind that needs examining. The observer and the observed are the same thing. This is the problem at the heart of self-knowledge. Philosophers have been circling it for two and a half thousand years.

David Hume tried to locate the self through introspection and found only a bundle of perceptions, never a unified self doing the perceiving. René Descartes tried the opposite move and announced that the one thing he could not doubt was the thinking that was doing the doubting. Neither resolved the question. Both widened it.

Modern psychology offers something the ancients didn’t have. Measurement. Tasha Eurich studied self-awareness across thousands of participants over four years. Ninety-five percent of them believed they were self-aware. The actual figure, measured against rigorous behavioral criteria, was somewhere between ten and fifteen percent.

That gap is worth holding onto because the thing you’ve been doing in the shower, on walks, in the minutes before sleep is probably not what you think it is. It feels like reflection but functions as something else entirely.

The mind, left to assess itself, produces a reading systematically more favorable than the behavior it’s meant to describe. And the distortion runs in specific directions. Flattering interpretations win out over unflattering ones. Coherent stories replace the messier reality they’re meant to describe. Plausible motives get attached to behavior that had no clear motive at all, and once attached, become the explanation you believe.

Which returns the philosophical problem in sharper form. If the mind distorts in predictable directions, and the mind is also the instrument of its own examination, is genuine self-knowledge even possible? Or is what passes for self-reflection just the mind generating increasingly sophisticated stories about itself, each one feeling like insight, none producing actual change?

There is a specific answer to this question, known and practiced by a small handful of thinkers who treated it with the seriousness it deserves. The answer is not that self-knowledge is impossible. It’s that most of what people call self-reflection is not the practice that produces it.

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The world is restructuring itself faster than any previous generation has had to absorb.

Industries are being automated. Careers require reinvention twice in a decade. Skills that felt permanent are becoming obsolete. The capacity to adapt has stopped being an asset.

It’s become a requirement.

The counterintuitive part is that intelligence isn’t the answer.

In the studies that have looked carefully, the people who are worst at updating their beliefs tend to be the smart ones. They use their intelligence to build better rationalizations for what they already believe.

Dan Kahan at Yale gave 1,111 Americans a math problem. The problem had a correct answer, and the participants had been tested for mathematical ability, so the researchers knew who could solve it and who couldn’t. What made the study unusual was the framing. The same math problem was presented to different groups with different labels. For some, the numbers described a skin cream trial. For others, the same numbers described gun control policy.

When the numbers were about skin cream, mathematical ability predicted accuracy. The better you were at math, the more likely you were to get it right. Simple.

When the numbers were about gun control, the better someone was at math, the larger the gap became between partisans.

The smartest liberals and the smartest conservatives didn’t converge on the correct answer the way they did with skin cream.

They diverged.

The most mathematically capable participants were the most likely to get the answer wrong when the correct answer threatened their political identity.

Intelligence didn’t help them find truth.

It helped them construct better rationalizations for what they already believed.

Their cognitive ability became a weapon aimed inward, at protecting their identity from information that threatened it. The sharper the mind, the sharper the rationalization, and the further from accuracy they landed.

Dan Kahan argued that for an individual embedded in a community, it is rational to be wrong with your tribe rather than right alone. The cost of reaching the correct answer on gun control policy is effectively zero. One person’s opinion changes nothing about actual policy. But the cost of breaking with your group’s consensus is enormous. Social belonging, professional networks, friendships, your sense of who you are and where you fit.

The math is clear.

Protect the identity. Sacrifice the accuracy.

It’s the rational move.

The mechanism behind rigidity operates far beyond politics.

You have beliefs about how your industry works, about what makes relationships succeed, about what kind of person you are and what you’re capable of. Those beliefs are embedded in communities, in relationships, in professional identities that depend on your continuing to hold them. Updating them doesn’t feel like intellectual growth. It feels like betrayal. Of your mentors, your colleagues, your past decisions, your sense of self.

A neuroscience team at USC put people inside an fMRI scanner and challenged their deeply held beliefs with counterevidence. The scans showed activation in the amygdala and the insular cortex, the brain’s threat detection circuitry. The same regions that light up when you hear a loud noise behind you in a dark alley.

The brain processes an identity challenge the way it processes physical danger.

Telling someone to “just be more open to new ideas” is roughly as useful as telling them to stop flinching when something flies at their face. The flinch is a defense mechanism operating below the level of conscious decision, protecting something the person values more than being correct.

The people who will suffer most are not the least capable.

They are the most locked in.

The ones who built their sense of self on specific expertise, specific methods, a specific way of understanding how the world works.

When the ground shifts under them, and it will, they won’t experience it as an intellectual challenge requiring an update.

They’ll experience it as an existential threat requiring defense.

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The uncomfortable part is that most people do not experience this as rigidity.

They experience it as clarity.

They feel certain because the belief has been rehearsed for years. They feel reasonable because they can explain themselves well. They feel grounded because their entire environment keeps rewarding the same conclusion.

But certainty is not the same as contact with reality.

A person can be intelligent, articulate, experienced, and completely unavailable to the thing they most need to see.

What protects your identity often protects you from the truth.

Identity explains why people defend old conclusions.

Expertise explains why they often cannot see better ones.

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